thinks

things i learned/realized/thought about today:

-my parents used to dress me up in pink high tops when i was a toddler
-because of this i'm not quite as upset about the unsightly haircut they kept me in
-vegetable soup is delicious
-i actually have the time to MAKE vegetable soup (and i did. and it was delicious. like i thought.)
-after summer school is over i'll have:

• 21 hours left until i graduate from Art + Design (3 semesters because of studio though, bleh)
  
• 45 hours left until i graduate from Textiles
• a total of 66 hours
• meaning i have to take 16+ hours per semester to graduate in five years
• this.is.totally.doable.
  

-for once, i'm not upset by how much school i have left
-am i the only art to wear designer displaying in the fab*rik window? because i don't want to be; that's weird.
-i feel uncomfortable using semi-colons. we didn't spend as much time talking about them in grammar as we did things like exclamation points. but seriously, i think exclamation points are pretty self-explanatory.
-i've lost the nerve.
-watched eagle vs. shark. felt awkward the whole time.
-i should shut up and stick with tumblr.

modelzzz

LOOK! we're a rainbow!!!

rabbit food for thought

everyone is posting about easter, so i thought i'd jump on the bandwagon.

i went to the crabtree earlier this week to buy myself something. you know, just a little retail treat.

upon entering the mall i noticed a large set up composed of a gazebo-like structure with flowers and eggs with a throne underneath. who was sitting on said throne? why it twas the EASTER BUNNY! then i see a line of children waiting to sit on the easter bunny's lap.

okay. hold up.

since when is the easter bunny like santa claus? since when does the easter bunny get the whole shebang mall set up? since when do parents bring their children to sit on its lap?! what is the purpose of this? do the kids ask for things from the easter bunny? is that how this works?! are they all like "yo, bunny, i want a wii and throw in a new guitar for my guitar hero while you're at it..."?!

no. that is not how it works.

when i was a kid the easter bunny was this mysterious, mythical creature that popped out of its hole once a year for one night to bring little girls and boys eggs and chocolately yums. it did not set up shop in the public mall letting rugrats climb all over it, pull at its ears, and make demands.

i remember one year when i was really little, my mom put fake bunny prints all over our house. my sister and i had to follow them from room to room until they ended up at our easter baskets. these baskets did not have a wii or guitar hero, or even a fucking lite brite (to put things in a historical context).

we got fake grass, plastic eggs, chocolate candy wrapped in foil, and probably something jesus related.

but now i'm old and i received no such basket this year. maybe people like me should be the ones hitting up the mall bunny and NOT the kids...they probably woke up to an iphone or something equally as outrageous. fml.

memories

this time last year, i was getting whopped with a willow rod by a group of boys.

that sounds wrong.

i miss this place.

my computer hates me

because i really have nothing better to note:

• my computer has picked some kind of virus, trojan, nonsense which has rendered it, and myself totally frustrated with the state of things. no pop ups, i do not want to install your bogus antivirus crap. i really just want you to GO THE FUCK AWAY.

• the front passenger side hub cap on my car is missing. i noticed this for the first time at 6:30am after a very long night in studio. at the time i thought i was hallucinating, but alas, i was not. i noticed a hubcap in the intersection of trinity and blue ridge on my way to class the next morning. was it possibly mine? i feel like i would have noticed a part of my car falling off.

• it turns out that another car in my apartment lot is also missing the same hubcap. coincedence? now, whenever i'm driving, i notice how many cars are missing hubcaps, and ironically enough they are usually missing the FRONT PASSENGER one. is there some kind of hubcap theft conspiracy happening in raleigh? if so, i must admit that the thieves are clever because people rarely go to their passenger's side and wouldn't notice for a while.

• i need to make decisions about hair/makeup for my art to wear line. i'm kind of illiterate in those arenas. i also don't really feel like scrambling to make a fifth garment, but i'd feel super lame if i only show four pieces. would it be possible to turn back the clock just a little? maybe i could buy one of those time machines like in napoleon dynamite, but this time it would work because i use stronger crystals and i'm not trying to go back as far as 1982.

• and someone please explain what happened to jon and kate? jon bar hopping with coeds? c'mon he's married and has 8 kids. i don't think any amount of money will entice a college girl to mess with that. besides, they've probably seen kate's wrath and know they would die in a fight.
  

that's pretty much it.

happy things

these little beauties showed up at my apartment today.
they make me happy.
they make me smile.

ten musings

1. this week is already kicking my ass...it's monday.
2. i have written/received more emails in the past month than i ever thought humanly possible.
3. two exams, one garment, one lab report, advising, registration, ticket printing, t-shirt printing, and two dj shifts are the obstacles that currently stand in my way of glorious, uninterrupted sleep.
4. these things don't seem as overwhelming when placed in a nice, concise list; however i am not fooled.
5. when i do actually get to sleep, i need for my sub-conscious to stop bombarding me with ridiculously realistic dreams that range from being disturbing to comforting but in a weird 'this isn't the way it is/should be' kind of way.
6. i don't make sense.
7. i miss my dog.
8. something keeps clicking in my apartment.
9. i can't wait to move into an apartment closer to campus. small conveniences...
10. is it april 23rd yet?

i read the news today, oh boy

denial, denial

spring break is over.

wait what? it just started!

nope. it's time to go back to school. and i don't want to.

we register for classes soon. i always have the hardest time getting classes to fit. the way i have it planned out right now, my earliest class on MWF is 1:30. that's not so bad. what surprised me more than anything was the fact that I couldn't find another class I needed that was offered MWF starting later than 8:30. do professors actually enjoy teaching that early?

i'm going to try swinging into a graphic design studio. i think it will be a nice change from fibers for once. it'll be weird going from such a hands on background to be thrown in front of a computer constantly. i think i'll manage.

it will be nice to have a new perspective on things.

if i take this studio it probably means i'll have to finally give in and buy a mac. jesus. i'll have to sell my soul to steve jobs in order to afford it. :)

what?

i'm 21 now.

and i don't really know what that's supposed to mean.

...if anything.

questions haven't been answered. problems haven't been solved.

the world continues spinning

and i guess that's all that matters.

one week!

the countdown to 21 begins in...15 minutes?

then i will only have one week before i'm seriously legal.

turning 21 is exciting but it also just reminds me that i'm supposed to be an adult now.

i don't want to be an adult. i don't want to face reality and leave my wonderful world of dreams.

reality is usually disappointing. why can't i just create my own?

top ten...

most played songs on my ipod. ever.

10. sticky honey, juliette and the licks
9. the plot, white rabbits
8. son of sam, elliott smith
7. color bars, elliott smith
6. gold lion, yeah yeah yeahs
5. no surprises, radiohead
4. thirteen, elliott smith
3. evil, interpol
2. playground love, air

i thought the pick for number one was the best because it really surprised me...

1. sex and candy, marcy playground

happenings

today, lauren and i went to wilmington.

it was cold. and windy. i had left my real coat in my car...in raleigh. we wrapped up in a blanket and enjoyed the sights, sounds, and smells.

then we went downtown and ate dinner and wandered through a really cute store. it gave me some ideas for my next art to wear garment.

i need to start thinking about things like hair, makeup, and music for the show.

oh and also.

i never fail to make an ass of myself.

yeeeeeaaah...

today it became very apparent to me that i have no future as an accountant.

perhaps choosing to not study/sleep the night before my accounting exam wasn't the best idea.

i'm surprisingly not that concerned that i bombed.

oh wellllll...

i'm glad i won't grow up to be a cpa. t and i were discussing yesterday how being a designer is the best job. as she so eloquently stated, "we get to design owl pot holders!"

better than balancing t-accounts any day.

a letter to a rabbit

dear gandalf,

i have really enjoyed your company so far this weekend. you are cute and i like watching you scamper about the living room. however. it is 1:40am and i am tired. i want to go to bed but you are still wide awake running back and forth across the carpet. please go back in your cage. i'm too tired to chase after you so do me a favor; hop back into your cage and nestle into your little box. okay?

THANKS!
katlyn

p.s. thank you for not pooping on our floor.

!!!!!!!!!

after all the bullshit, nonsense, back and forth, ups and downs...I, Katlyn Griffin, have officially been accepted as a designer for art to wear.

jurying was stressful simply because i know nothing about make up or how to do hair. (the girly gene didn't pass to me.) but with jensen's make up expertise and eileen telling me to calm down i managed. the past two weeks of constant work and no sleep came down to, literally, three minutes in the jury room.

but. now i am VICTORIOUS!

last minute fixes
photo courtesy of lauren boynton (ANOTHER WINNER AT LIFE aka atw designer)

things are going

this week.

i tell you what, this week has been a fucking roller coaster. not just for myself but for other people i know too. is it something in the air i wonder? or the changing month? or that we're now in the year of the ox?

all i know is that i've been way down and way up this week. currently things are looking up and i couldn't be more grateful.

i'd like to focus on the good things.

dj training has been really fun so far. i got to talk on the radio quite a bit this weekend, which is really weird for me to think about. i'm excited to get started on my own.

art to wear is an option once again. i can hear it now...
"DEAR LORD CAN'T SHE MAKE UP HER MIND!?"
well. no. i'm really just playing it by ear right now. if i get everything done for jury, awesome. if not, oh well not a big deal.

i just need to survive this week.

decisions

i've made a decision.

no art to wear this year. i feel slightly disappointed but also extremely relieved. this semester i just don't have the time to do it the way i want to. tis cool. always next year.

currently my computer is making sounds like a galaga arcade game. like when you fire the missile things.

strange.

unsure

i need to make some decisions.

i'm beginning to feel like i'm stretching myself too thin.

the past few weeks have been ridiculously stressful for me and it's because i've committed myself to so many different things. i'm really excited about what i'm getting involved with, but the time/stress factor is becoming difficult.

i may have to cut something out.

i think i might not to do Art to Wear after all. i'm so involved in the show already and there's always next year. i feel like i should spend this semester learning and perfecting my craft so that when i finally do show, i'll be really happy with it. i had wanted to get started on it over christmas break, but i had so much other work to do. next year i'll plan ahead.

gah. i don't know what i'm doing, but i need to decide quickly.

insomnia

for some reason i have had a terrible time trying to sleep the past two weeks.

and to make things worse, i've begun waking up suddenly at 8:00 am everyday this week.

i am tired.

and have a lot of work to do this weekend.

i won't be leaving my house.

i'm going to set up a small scale sweatshop in my kitchen to finish my first garment.

I WILL FINISH THIS WEEKEND!!!

i have to; i only have two weeks left.

a letter to the weather

dear snow,

it has been such a dreadfully long time since we last met. i've heard rumors that you will be in town tomorrow and i would love to see you again! if you come to visit i will most certainly be obliged to skip my classes in order to enjoy your company.

i hope to see you very soon!

love,

katlyn

songs on repeat

• asshole. beck
• playground love. air
• mr. pleasant. the kinks
• imitosis. andrew bird
• giga dance. deerhoof
• sinking. the appleseed cast
• i'm the man who loves you. wilco
• st. joe on the schoolbus. marcy playground
• 10 x 10. the yeah yeah yeahs
• the man who sold the world. david bowie
• i would hurt a fly. built to spill
• 99 anthems. jaydiohead
• there goes my gun. the pixies
• ghostwriter. rjd2

i just can't seem to get enough.

hmph

things i need to happen:

• a miracle to occur where i have more than just three weeks before jurying
• tiny elves to hand dye and screen print all the silk scarves sitting in the box under my desk (there are a lot)
  
• my printer to please print the lecture notes for my class tomorrow (i've been waiting thirty minutes. i don't think this is happening.)
  
• a giant piece of what looks, tastes, and smells like fried chicken, BUT ISN'T (because i'm over meat) to appear on a plate in front of me so i can devour it
  
• someone to bitch-slap Tamra from the Real Housewives of Orange County
• someone to make me stop watching that terrible, yet extremely addictive show
  
• the growth of a real life, full blown money tree in front of my apartment (nothing but benjamins of course)
  

if only.

BY GOD I THINK SHE'S GOT IT!!!

yes, ladies and gentlemen, the rumors are true!

KATLYN GRIFFIN HAS FINALLY, REALLY AND IRREVOCABLY DECIDED ON HER ART to WEAR LINE.

that's right. after all the false alarms this is the real deal.

HOW CAN THIS BE? you ask. because this time it isn't a stupid, cliche, uninteresting (to me anyway), or super THEMEY theme. plus, i have less than a month to make two killer garments with nothing started so it's time to be decisive because that is what 2009 is all about!!! RIGHT?!

i have ideas! I HAVE ACTUAL SKETCHES DRAWN! are you hearing this shit?! i'm just as amazed as you.

apologies for the excessive capitalization, but how else can i reflect the rise in volume as would occur had you actually heard me saying all this?

back in business

first day of class. not terribly painful, but i wasn't really awake until about 12:30. today i only had two classes.

first: Fiber Science, in which i get to learn about fibers. again. hooray.

second: Macroeconomics, where my teacher acts as though she really intends to teach us something and not just give us a quiz everyday and never talk about anything except Bozeman, MT and how she used to work for the government and how economics is oh so important but never actually TEACHING us anything about it. ahem, dick stroup.

i'm a little excited to finally learn something about macroeconomics and how it all works. maybe now when people are all "THE ECONOMY IS IN THE SHITHOLE! HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO!" i'll have something coherent to say about it.

DONE!

i'm finally finished with my scholarship stuffs!
goodbye case study, HELLO 5 GRAND!!!

now i can focus my time on freaking out about other things including but not limited to:

• starting school wednesday
• figuring out how "arranged" classes actually work
• Art to Wear shiz: my line, jurying, graphics coordinating, merchandise sourcing/production, fundraising, etc.
• dj training for wknc
• treasuring for design council
• learning to accept jan ru as my studio professor...again
• applying for killer internships for summer times: i have a few options that sound promising
• attempting to keep myself collected enough to rock on and power through

i feel like this semester will be challenging but that i'll get a lot out of it...chayeah!

two thousand and nine

and thus begins a new year.

here's to ending chapters, closing dead-end doors, and embracing new chances.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!